Ytd I finished up the clothin mountain and I was proud of myself, bein able to do sumtin dat mama carn. I finished it up fer 2 hr. nyehs. But my mom cud only finished dat up fer a whole day, man. Acherli, I was unwillin to do dat as u all noe im very2 lazy lyke a piggie. Oink2. hehe. But my mom told me if I didnt do it, I cudnt go out today. So I felt a need to do it.
I tot I cud go to esplanade today. But fifa bubbled me. Urgh. how I hate dat. She said we cud go dere as she was also hesitant to go toa payoh to meet mus.
(I dun lyke him uh. irritatin.) Aishah too wana go toa payoh. And I was lyke,
sial uh. Toa payoh sia. Ade per siol kt sane? Si fifa nie, lau tknk pi, blang uh. Per siak. Bueh sia. I better off went to wild2 wet wif my fam sei. Urgh. fuck uh!!!
As 155 came, they persuaded me to go toa payoh. But I told them dat if they wanted to go, go uh. Den they jus went, widout sayin sorry. How pathetic I felt. Sigh. Den I ringed narkiah, askin whether she cud go out or not. Unfortunately, she had to take care of her lil bros. sigh. She asked me whether I wanted to go to her hse. But I told her I wud ringed her later. Ringed tira, she told me she had to follow her mom.
what a bad luck I hef today. Hopin upon fer kimie to ans his hp, I ringed him. I asked him where he was.
kt uma. -phew! At last, got sumwher to go. Bought coke at gd luck shop. Met him at the bridge. He informed me dat he wanted to meet zal. Den I was lyke,
smlm da jmpe, jmpe agi. I felt like as if his frens are his gf and im his fren. He also said dat he had to be hm by 4. min later, zal came. They talked. Found out they wanted to meet tmr.
NOW DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I MEANT? HIS FRIENDS ARE MORE IMPORTANT THAN ME!!! Suddenly, min came out frm his hse, askin whether they wanted to follow him to hang ard outside a mosque in eunos. Kimie said he didnt want to go. But guess wat, he went edy la. Wen the ticks got 4, he sent me to the bus stop. he asked me to ring him.
got hm. washed up. got ready to watch GUBRA again. ringed him fer umpteen tymes but he didnt pick up.
lyke fuck sia. den ringed narkiah. she was talkin to regina but she told me she wud ring me beck later. continue watchin GUBRA. narkiah called and i felt empty as ive not eaten since morn. 530 watched holland v. ringed him again. he told me he wanted to top up his ez lynk. so i asked him wher he was. he said eunos.
wif? -min & zal. goin mosque la.god, i tot he didnt want to go. but at last he went.
dese tings make me tynk alot. save or jus ferget dis rship? wen he wanted to kiss me jus now, i was tynkin, shud i kiss him beck? hes not the guy dat i wana live and grow old wif. hes not mature-tynkin yet. he still wants to enjoy. he doesnt tynk of his future. and i dun want a fren person fer livin. or he‘ll end up goin out wif his frens more often than me. I DONT WANT THAT. but he was the one who said dat dere is loads of frens fer enjoyin but fer strugglin lyfe, nop. den why the hell is he always meetin his dumb frens?
i want a companion dat is able to go thru thick and thin wif me no matter wat. he must not make his frens lyke his gf. he must be a mature-tynkin person. tynk of his future instead of present.
i wana find the One ryt now cos i dun wana waste my tyme. and i wana concentrate on my studies. if ive found the One now, i wudnt hef to waste tyme to find a soulmate.
my dreams are to learn how to bcome a pro hairstylist and guitarist. werk by the end of dis yr. save loads of money. travel to bangkok at 16 wif bf. pass my o wif flyin colors. bcome a model. go to poly or la salle or nafa to continue studyin fashion design or fashion stylin or hair stylin. werk, werk and werk. liv in a condo. travel, travel and travel. hef a hubby to die fer. hef 2 kids. 1 boy and 1 gurl. hef grandchildren. retire. travel, travel and travel again. DIE.
IM TO LAZY TO WRITE IN FULL SENTENCES.xoxo SALLY.
Monday, September 04, 2006
My bro has gone for his p5 camp . quite glad that hes going cos my house would be quiet without him . it would be very noisy if hes here . and some more , with my sis . basically , my sibs are like couple . always sticking to each other . sometimes I do feel left out . cos their love for each other is tremendously much compared to loving me . what else my mum . she loves my sibs more than me . though she denies it but I can feel im just being alienated . But never mind . im pulling myself through .
Called my dad ytd . but he doesnt seem happy to find me calling him . nth much to talk . and he too . how sad . I wanted to ask him to top up my prepaid . but no . im afraid if he thinks that I called just to ask him that . actually I wanted to know how he was going with his life now . he told me that he had another job . part time . I wonder why he keeps chging jobs . is he being fired all the time ? I hope hes going fine . sometimes it makes me think why I should care for a dad who doesnt care about his children . but all along , hes my dad , right ? I cant hate him . and I cant hate my mom for what she did to me either . without them , I wont be standing on this ground , blogging . nyehs . practically , pple , I live a sad life . yeah . im not whining or something . but this IS a fact of fate . argh , dont bother , alright ?
Well , today I watched a nice movie , GUBRA . uber sweet . I wanna watch the first part , SEPET . cos I find it hard when I dont understand how the beginning goes . I wish im older that I could marry now . watching the lives of married couples in GUBRA is so A temptation . HAHA .
PEEPS , Im okay with kimie . its just a misunderstanding . were going 6 mths this sat . my longest rship ever . know what ? I wanna make him my soulmate . yeah . ive think about it and im very sure about it . :D
xoxo SALLY .
Thursday, August 31, 2006
disappointed with kimie . he makes his friends more important than me . forgets about me all the time . didn't call me today . dammit !
met tira . and hanged out with balqis . im such a hypocrite to hang out with balqis . urgh . saw loads of seniors in yumin primary . loads of matreps and minahreps too . CRAP . hariz emo ? i dont know . zulkifli kept staring . ate loads of chilli fishballs . forgotten ive allergy . urgh . drank grape juice for only 30c . i wish im in primary school again .
smoked alot today due to the stress . was in a verge of sniffing glue . but nope . i stopped myself . my bladder got out of control that ive to trouble tira and balqis to walk . sigh .
then i slept my way to sungei rd . got to walk all the way back cause i couldnt find my way to the bus stop . felt very tired . screws all loose . thats all peeps . my mum irritates me today .
xoxo SALLY .